FINAL DIARY!!!!!

Ok so I know you guys are expecting this diary to be some wild and crazy spectacular novel but it's not going to be. LOL. just thought I'd get that out there in the open. I have been working ten hour days the past week and moving into the condo in between as well. I have been a very physically and mentally exhausted little boy.

So, Ryan has officially moved in all of his belongings from his old place. He cheated though and got movers. Thank god he did though because we would NOT have been able to move his piano just the two of us. My god that sucker is HEAVY! lol. And all I have left ot move in is what few things I have left in my closet and under the bed. OH! and of course I can't forget about cleaning out my cabinet in the kitchen. You know my fat ass likes to eat!

Anyways, the place is coming together rather nicely. We have the sofa being delivered on Monday and we had the bed delivered yesterday. so all thats left now is the dining and storage and a coffee table...oh yeah and an armoir for the entertainment in the living room. Goodness, I forget sometimes just how much goes into a place.lol

As for leaving the house I'm saddened that it has come so soon. I'm not really happy about leaving so soon but I'm ready to take that next step in mine and Ryan's relationship. I'm going to miss Zac and Jon and Clay. With Zac it was more of a business transaction or so it felt. Not that I had any problems with Zac but I understand why he is the way he is with CBL. I'm going to miss the hell out of Jonathan and the way we made fun of people together. I'll never forget this one time at band camp....no I'm just kidding. I really have built many memories here at CBL. Good and bad. And I've learned a lot in my time with CBL.

I am very appreciative of the opportunity that i was given to be here. It gave me the chance to learn about myself and others and to get myself back on my feet. And I can't forget the most important part, had I not moved in here I wouldn't have met Ryan. But it really has taught me how to deal with so many different types of people, in chat and and the house.

I'm very happy also that I was able to give Clay the same opportunity I was given. I'm sad that I have to leave before he does but he can live on my legacy so to speak. lol. He truly is my twin in many aspects. I hope that he is able to one day reach the state of happiness that I have reached through my time spent here with CBL. I also hope that he can use it to his benefit and not be trapped into the whole CBL bubble as I like to call it. Him and Tom seem to be working well together so I wish them happiness and good times together. I have kinda shown Clay the path and given him the light to guide him now it's his time to walk the path and see where it leads him.

And since I just thought about it why not give you like a small recap of what has happened in the past six months....hmmmmm lets see where do i begin. lol. Well I came to CBL hung out at the parties for a month before I was accepted. I quit my red lobster job and went buck wild for a month. I met Ryan and fell madly in love. I switched jobs three times and now work back at my old job (411). And now Ryan and I have a place of our own and I'm going off into the big bad world to make my own life. There ya go, that about sums it all up right there. lol

I also wanted to say thank you to the members. Without you guys, this place would not be possible. And I wouldn't have been able to be a part of it. So, thank you. You guys really are the best group of people I have ever had the opportunity to meet. Granted there are a few sick and twisted ones out there but I love you guys too. It's the off ones that keep this world balanced just remember that! lol. I would know, I'm one of em! but truly, this has been a very rewarding experience that I will never forget and it's almost all because of you guys so again I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for coming into my life and being a part of it. I hope that I have been as good to you guys as you have been to me. And I hope that you have enjoyed me sharing my life with you cuz I have certainly enjoyed you guys being a part of mine. I wish you all love, health, happiness, and laughter in your lives wherever you are and whatever you're doing.

I hope that you guys don't forget about me when I'm gone. Cuz, I won't forget about you. Thank you for the third and last time for everything!

Huge hugs and sloppy kisses,

MARSHALL