FINAL DIARY!!!!!

Ok so I know you guys are expecting this diary to be some wild and crazy spectacular novel but it's not going to be. LOL. just thought I'd get that out there in the open. I have been working ten hour days the past week and moving into the condo in between as well. I have been a very physically and mentally exhausted little boy.

So, Ryan has officially moved in all of his belongings from his old place. He cheated though and got movers. Thank god he did though because we would NOT have been able to move his piano just the two of us. My god that sucker is HEAVY! lol. And all I have left ot move in is what few things I have left in my closet and under the bed. OH! and of course I can't forget about cleaning out my cabinet in the kitchen. You know my fat ass likes to eat!

Anyways, the place is coming together rather nicely. We have the sofa being delivered on Monday and we had the bed delivered yesterday. so all thats left now is the dining and storage and a coffee table...oh yeah and an armoir for the entertainment in the living room. Goodness, I forget sometimes just how much goes into a place.lol

As for leaving the house I'm saddened that it has come so soon. I'm not really happy about leaving so soon but I'm ready to take that next step in mine and Ryan's relationship. I'm going to miss Zac and Jon and Clay. With Zac it was more of a business transaction or so it felt. Not that I had any problems with Zac but I understand why he is the way he is with CBL. I'm going to miss the hell out of Jonathan and the way we made fun of people together. I'll never forget this one time at band camp....no I'm just kidding. I really have built many memories here at CBL. Good and bad. And I've learned a lot in my time with CBL.

I am very appreciative of the opportunity that i was given to be here. It gave me the chance to learn about myself and others and to get myself back on my feet. And I can't forget the most important part, had I not moved in here I wouldn't have met Ryan. But it really has taught me how to deal with so many different types of people, in chat and and the house.

I'm very happy also that I was able to give Clay the same opportunity I was given. I'm sad that I have to leave before he does but he can live on my legacy so to speak. lol. He truly is my twin in many aspects. I hope that he is able to one day reach the state of happiness that I have reached through my time spent here with CBL. I also hope that he can use it to his benefit and not be trapped into the whole CBL bubble as I like to call it. Him and Tom seem to be working well together so I wish them happiness and good times together. I have kinda shown Clay the path and given him the light to guide him now it's his time to walk the path and see where it leads him.

And since I just thought about it why not give you like a small recap of what has happened in the past six months....hmmmmm lets see where do i begin. lol. Well I came to CBL hung out at the parties for a month before I was accepted. I quit my red lobster job and went buck wild for a month. I met Ryan and fell madly in love. I switched jobs three times and now work back at my old job (411). And now Ryan and I have a place of our own and I'm going off into the big bad world to make my own life. There ya go, that about sums it all up right there. lol

I also wanted to say thank you to the members. Without you guys, this place would not be possible. And I wouldn't have been able to be a part of it. So, thank you. You guys really are the best group of people I have ever had the opportunity to meet. Granted there are a few sick and twisted ones out there but I love you guys too. It's the off ones that keep this world balanced just remember that! lol. I would know, I'm one of em! but truly, this has been a very rewarding experience that I will never forget and it's almost all because of you guys so again I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for coming into my life and being a part of it. I hope that I have been as good to you guys as you have been to me. And I hope that you have enjoyed me sharing my life with you cuz I have certainly enjoyed you guys being a part of mine. I wish you all love, health, happiness, and laughter in your lives wherever you are and whatever you're doing.

I hope that you guys don't forget about me when I'm gone. Cuz, I won't forget about you. Thank you for the third and last time for everything!

Huge hugs and sloppy kisses,

MARSHALL

almost my final diary :(

Well it is official Ryan and I have a sofa! lol we found one at rooms to go and its very purtyful. Unfortunately, it's going to set us back roughly $1,000. We put a down payment on it yesterday, and are hopeful to have it paid off and delivered within the next 3 weeks. We searched about 10 stores before settling down on one we liked. It's a sectional, brown, contemporary and very comfortable. The next few things that we're going to have to work on are a dinette set and a coffee table.

The days are flying by now, like cows in a twister. I can't believe that 6 months have come and gone. It just seems like yesterday that I whipped my dick out and jacked off in front of everyone for the first time. I just sat down last night and figured out my days and I only have seven days left of chat and one final diary to do after this one. So, y'all better get in my chats to get your last times to see and talk to me.

The anticipation of moving in is killing me too. We have already set up for movers to come out this weekend and move all the big stuff for us. We're going to have to make several trips with both of our stuff to the new place. Ryan has his stuff and furniture and i have my stuff at the house, my old apartment and the rest at my parents. So, I'll have several stops to make this week so that we're not without. IKEA is becoming our new best buddy, although cash is sweeter than honey. Hint Hint - birthday is coming up.... and may I might add that there hasn't been a CBL to completely finish their 6 month contract in this house in years! I think some type of reward should be given. Not that I'm being pushy, but come on... I set out to do something, and I did it. Good job. Pat on the back. Rim my wukkie.

Although I can honestly say that I'm NOT going to miss Claire or the dogs. lol. I love the fact of how all this new stuff is coming into the house conveniently as I am leaving. I am thoroughly awaiting the days when I can do what I want when I want and not have to answer to anyone. Although, I always need to answer to Ryan (as he sits reading over my shoulder as I write this). I'm scared. Send help. Mommy. j/k.

I hope that cbl can find some worthy candidates to take my place when I leave. I mean they already have someone worthy (Clay) but good luck on finding others, apparently all the new apps keep backing out so good luck there. I guess people don't like the idea of living with mommy and daddy, a.k.a. zac and jonathan. I think one thing that they forget is that yes, it is a business, but the people who help run the business are human beings with feelings. And that is completely over looked. I understand that business is business, but showing a little more personality and concern never hurt anyone. Maybe one of the members can sign up? Go ahead and try boys!!

I also got my job back with 411. So no more vacation package selling for me and back to "What city and state please?" I am very pleased with myself for getting that job back cuz now I'm full time and have benefits again! YAY!

Here's a list of the top ten things I learned while living at CBL:

1) I'll never live with 6 people under one roof again
2) Someone is always watching
3) If you like it a lot, hide it. (esp. food and cigarettes)
4) Dogs are the biggest pain in my ass and I'll never own one
5) Ear plugs can prove to be helpful. (Clair)
6) Never sit naked on a leather couch for more than 1 hour.
7) Be careful where you step, there's doggie surprises.
8) The word privacy does not exist.
9) Sleeping in only accounts to 10am, if you're lucky.
10) You'll never run out of condoms and lube here.

However, despite all this, whenever you need someone to talk to about anything, the greatest thing is that you don't have just one person, but an entire group of people willing to listen and help: THE MEMBERS. You are all the best. Love you all and hope to see every last one of you before I leave.

I'm out like a fat kid playing dodge ball,

Marshall
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Written Diary 2/2

Countdown.....after this diary I only have but two left to write. What a pitiful sentiment huh? lol. No seriously though, Time is Really going to start flying by now. Ryan and I have officially found us a place and we are going to be moving things in starting the fifteenth! OMG! I'm like totally buggin! So, my friend Daryl was like OMG! you've GOT to see this place it's totally bitchin! so i was like ok. So, I like went to cruise this bitchin place out right, and i was totally like OMG! it's totally bitchin I HAVE to have it! And then HE was like, but then I was like and then WE were like but anyway......

Sorry, I just couldn't resist a valley girl moment. On a more serious note, we have settled on the condo. It's absolutely beautiful. Hard wood floors through the house, Berber carpet in the bedrooms, and tile in the bathrooms and laundry room. I'm LOVIN it! brand new kitchen and appliances as well. They just got done renovating it so everything is brand spankin new.

Oh, yeah and as you all know I went to North Carolina for a week to visit family period(.) end of paragraph
and that's all I have to really say about that.

No I'm just joshin ya! lol the visit was really good and much needed. It was great to see my lil sis again. She's almost taller than me now and wearing bras and WOW. lol I also got to see some family that I haven't seen since I was like ten and even got to meet family that I've never met before. It was creepy.

You know, Someone once said, The bonds between men are based on a lot of things: shared interests, same enthusiasms and passions, even mutual attraction. But when a friendship ends, a woman is often to blame.........
makes ya think huh? SAY NO TO THE PUNANNI! JUST SAY NO!

just thought I'd throw that in there as food for thought. But anyway like I stated earlier Ryan and I will be making " the move" on the 15th. I'm so excited......can you tell? lol so now I have the dreaded duty of calling the monosodium glutamate eating barnicle covered beach whale to get my stuff back. In case you guys are confused im talking about the one..........the only.............CHARLIE!!!!!! What do we have for him Johnny? OOOOOOOHHHHHHHH it's a fabulous lifetime membership to jeeeeennnnnnyyyyyyy CCCRRRRAAAAIIIIIGGGGGG! Come on down and claim your prize!

The human head weighs approximately 8 pounds. So think about that the next time someone tells you to move your fat head out of the way.

As you can OBVIOUSLY see my mind has been on the fritz lately these are the consequences of having a deranged childhood filled with insane lament. but back to real life, my mind is completely nonfunctional right now so I'm gonna wrap this up by saying I love you all and will miss you when my time comes. Not that I'm dying anytime soon. lol. But I think a piece of my heart has by living here. This is Bob Opsahl reporting to you live from the cbl mansion. Have a good night everyone.

Is this thing turned off or what?............ my ass has a mosquito bite and it's been driving me nuckin futs! GO TO COMMERCIAL!