Written Diary

Wow! time is really flying by now. It feels like I just did this the other day but I must be having fun if it's flying by right? at least things seem to be running smoothly so far though.

Ryan and I have been looking at properties on the weekends for the past few weeks. We have found a couple of really nice places and we've found some really not so nice places. I think for the most part though we have made up our minds as to where we want to move into. The only problem that we are facing at this point is the money factor and availability. It's going to cost us a little more than we expected and the time they want us to move in is a little sooner than expected as well. I know that if we did decide on the place that it would be really tight for the first few months financially but i know it will be worth it in the long run.

Not to mention I'm taking a trip up to North Carolina in a few weeks to see my sister for her birthday. So thats taking a pretty big chunk out of my savings for the apartment. I wanted to go up to see my sister and family members because I haven't seen them in almost 5 years now. Every time I talk to my mom about it she keeps trying to make me postpone it because I keep getting the feeling that she doesn't want me there.

Mom just recently found out about me being gay. When I'm around that side of the family, I'm a totally different person. So, when I told my mom I was interested in men she of course was not too fond of the idea. She basically told me that I need to snap out of whatever phase I'm going through and bring a girlfriend home soon and give her some grandkids! lol! I told her not a snowballs chance in hell.

I also told her that I'm now 23 years old and I don't think I go through "phases" anymore. And also that I'm the happiest I think I've ever been in my life. so she either needs to accept it or not. But, either way she needs to make up her mind and quit giving me guilt trips about it. I love her to death but she really needs to respect me as a person and respect my wishes in life and support me like she almost always has in previous times.

But, anyway, as far as the house goes I couldn't really tell you whats been going on. I know Clay celebrated his birthday on Saturday but I have absolutely no idea as to what he did. And as for the other boys i really have no idea whats been going on with them. Zac is always couped up in the office like a bat in a cave. Jonathan is taking care of the horses and going to his physical therapy appointments.

As far as the Tampa house, I hope that those boys stay there for longer than most boys have been. As in longer than a month or so. LOL! I think that having Chaz out there helps a considerable amount. He can help the boys stay in line and not go wild and crazy (in a bad way).

As for the chats I'm going to be chatting the same that I have been all 11-1's this week and I have no idea what days off I'm going to take. Probably Saturday so that Ryan and I can go looking at apartments again just to keep our options open. But like I said earlier, I think we have found the place we want. Anyways, Keep yourselves updated on the site and I'll be seeing you guys in chat soon! Love you all!

Marshall